Well, right now, I'm especially moody as I'm 15 weeks pregnant, and still have not got over the morning sickness stage.  I really wish I would get over it.  But anyway, that's really not why I'm writing.
Chiefly, I'm writing this because I came to a decision today.  I often write emotional themed poems, as you may have noticed, and usually they are how I'm feeling at the moment.  I am a firm believer that the best poetry is that which the poet puts himself into it.  Poetry is meant to be felt by the reader, not confuse the reader.  Which is why I love Langston Hughes.  You can tell with all his poems, that there is bits of how he felt in each of his poems.  At any rate, again I'm getting off topic.  A lot of my emotional poems also have some sort of message, and I decided, its about time I actually listen to myself and start taking my own advice.
For example, I was talking with my big British brother, not for the first time, about some dramas that occurred in times past that really affected us both, and a large number of other people too.  I decided, that it was time to let myself heal, and actually show I've healed.  People often push me around, and tell me what to do, and to be honest, I hate it.  One person in particular on this site I love to write for did that, when I actually had some semblance of power.  But, I'm not going to let her ruin me any more.  Everything she told me was stupid or wouldn't work?  I'm doing it.  I'm going to prove her wrong.  And then, she can shut her face, and maybe, I'll actually get a damned apology.
Or maybe, I'll get an apology from the admin team who decided to dehorse me for no good reason, and with no warning, when I show them that I am not a damned idiot. Maybe for once, I can actually get them to see they were wrong, whatever their reason was for throwing me out the window.  Whatever it was, I don't know it, and I don't really care anymore, not beyond the point of showing them what damn idiots they are.
Anyway, end rant now.